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It is a snare to imagine that God wants to make us perfect specimens of what He can do; God’s purpose is to make us one with Himself. The emphasis of holiness movements is apt to be that God is producing specimens of holiness to put in His museum. If you go off on this idea of personal holiness, the dead-set of your life will not be for God, but for what you call the manifestation of God in your life.

~Oswald Chambers

I like to spend a great deal of time absorbed by me, myself, and I lately. I fail … everyone falls short of the glory of God! Getting over myself right now and getting my eyes focused back on the one that matters!

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Maybe This Will Speak to You too . . .

I love Oswald Chambers . . . I’ve also decided that I’ve been saying that for a year now. 🙂  I really need to branch out, truly.  Honestly I don’t buy a lot of books, that takes money.  This devotional was given to Justin as a Christmas gift by some good friends of ours years and years ago . . . His word will never return void, for sure. 🙂

But today’s, actually tomorrow’s, devotional spoke loud and clear to me at this time in my life.  My life ain’t bad.  God is faithful, good and meets me in the here and now . . . I love Him!!

That said . . . He is dealing with my attitude, my self-righteousness and all the stuff related.  Especially dealing with the area of self-pity.  Oh, ugh!  Biggest pitfall of yours truly.

Oswald Chambers

Are You Ready To Be Offered

I am already being poured out as a drink offering.” ~2 Tim 4:6

I am ready to be offered.”  It is a transaction of will, not of sentiment.  Tell God you are ready to be offered; then let the consequences be what they may, there is no strand of complaint now, no matter what God chooses.  God puts you through the crisis in private, no one person can help another.  Externally the life may be the same, the difference is in will.  Go through the crisis in will, then when it comes externally there will be no thought of the cost.  If you do not transact in will with God along this line, you will end in wakening sympathy for yourself.

“Bind the sacrifice with cords, even unto the horns of the altar.”  The altar means fire – burning and purification and insulation for one purpose only, the destruction of every affinity that God has not started and of every attachment that is not an attachment in God.  You do not destroy it, God does; you bind the sacrifice to the horns of the altar; and see that you do not give way to self-pity when the fire begins.  After this way of fire, there is nothing that oppresses or depresses.  When the crisis arises, you realize that things cannot touch you as they used to do.  What is your way of fire?

Tell God you are ready to be offered, and God will prove Himself to be all you ever dreamed He would be. 

Daily, taking up that cross, taking up the armor of God for protection, meeting and connecting with our Master daily . . . our only Master.  You cannot serve two masters . . . nope, you will favor one eventually and flake on the other.  That has been my conviction lately . . . what and who do I fear more than my own God?? Love more?? Exalt higher?? We sing a lot of beautiful worship songs regarding lifting Him higher, exalting Him, loving Him more than life . . . But does that play out in our daily lives?  I am convicted by this, oh my!  When I hear God on something but Justin does not . . . do I just hide it?  Or do I bring it up anyway and stand for what is right, in a respectful way? Humble and praying? 

This is stuff God has really been dealing with me on.  Persevere . . . endure the pressure of fighting the good fight of faith, that is what will mature us.  Not a million sermons, worsipping a bizillion songs, talking the talk . . . that stuff is good for encouragement, praising God, but the heart and will still need to be submitted . . . no, sacrificed to our God. 

I am not standing in a self-righteous stance here . . . I’m in the thick of learning this stuff and I’m positive He is going to reveal more and more as I keep submitting . . . minute by minute seeking His heart, will and presence in my life.  

Don’t forget grace . . . as we seek Him, His grace is a free gift to us! We’re able to persevere and endure and all that stuff because of His love, His ultimate sacrifice and by His grace.  And, personally, I just don’t want to live this life without that grace or without drawing close to Him.  It just ain’t worth it, eh. 🙂

All done.

Hope everyone’s weekend is a good one!! 🙂

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How Did I Get Here?

I wanted to do nothing more than love my Savior, worship my God, and generally never be separate from the One who has truly loved and pulled me out the mires of my own making . . . for the rest of my days.

I have known grace, love, forgiveness and He has been long-suffering in my laziness and apathy.

But the apathy, as of late, has led me down a path separate from where I know I should be standing . . . despite what hubby is doing, the kids are up to and everything that glitters, seeming to lure me away.

My prayer, my whole life, has been “God, don’t ever let me fall out of love with you . . . out of grace with you . . . do whatever it takes to get my attention and focus back on You, where it matters.”

He’s doing just that with a few negative bumps in the road . . . I am glad my instant reaction is look to God; that alone is the grace of God.

My devotional today spoke to me deeply and on a personal level today . . . speaking into the areas I’ve allowed to slip, even ones that don’t appear spiritual . . . Here it is . . . you knew I’d share it, right? 🙂

The Offering of The Natural

“Abraham had two sons, the one by a bond-maid, the other by a free-woman.” ~ Galatians 4:22

Paul is not dealing the sin in this chapter of Galatians, but with the revelation of the natural to the spiritual.  The natural must be turned into the spiritual by sacrifice, otherwise a tremendous divorce will be produced in the actual life.  Why should God ordain the natural to be sacrificed? God did not.  It is not God’s order, but His permissive will.  God’s order was that the natural should be transformed into the spiritual by obedience; it is sin that made it necessary for the natural to be sacrificed.

Abraham had to offer up Ishmael before he offered up Isaac.  Some of us are trying to offer up spiritual sacrifices to God before we have sacrificed the natural.  The only way in which we can offer a spiritual sacrifice to God is by presenting our bodies a living sacrifice.  Sanctification means more than deliverance from sin, it means the deliberate commitment of myself whom God has saved to God, and that I do not care what it costs.

If we do no sacrifice the natural to the spiritual, the natural life will mock at the life of the Son of God in us and produce a continual swither.  This is always the result of an undisciplined spiritual nature.  We go wrong because we stubbornly refuse to discipline ourselves, physically, morally, or mentally.  “I wasn’t disciplined as a child.”  You must discipline yourself now.  If you do not, you will ruin the whole of your personal life for God.

God is not with our natural life while we pamper it; but when we put it out in the desert and resolutely keep it under, then God will be with it; and He will open up wells and oases, and fulfill His promises for the natural.

~Oswald Chambers, My Utmost For HIS Highest

This is my conviction and I love that my God has, once again, disciplined me . . . I love that HE cares enough to not let me slip through the cracks!

I will make good . . . not perfect, cuz no one is . . . but humbly try and try and try again to get it right; walking closer still to my God. Obedience.

I hope not to be preachy . . . just uplifting.  If you’re going through a hard time . . . difficult circumstance or just don’t feel peace . . . look, again, to God.  Earnestly seek Him and He’ll meet ya! 🙂 And be grateful for the grace but also the loving discipline of our God.

Happy Holidays!!

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I’m gonna do a whole lot quoting from Oswald Chambers . . . still my favorite book besides the Bible.

“For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all.” ~James 2:10

The moral law does not consider us as weak human being at all, it takes no account of our heredity and infirmities, it demands that we be absolutely moral.  The moral law never alters, either for the noblest or for the weakest, it is eternally and abidingly the same.  The moral law ordained by God does not make itself weak to the weak, it does not palliate our shortcomings, it remains absolute for all times and eternity.  If we do not realize this, it is because we are less than alive; immediately we are alive, life becomes a tragedy.  “I was alive without the law once: but when the commandment came, sin revived, and I died.”  When we realize this, then the Spirit of God convicts us of sin.  Until a man gets there and sees that there is no hope, the Cross of Jesus Christ is a farce to him.  Conviction of sin always brings a fearful binding sense of the law, it makes a man hopeless – “sold under sin.”  I, a guilty sinner, can never get right with God, it is impossible.  There is only one way in which I can get right with God, and that is by the Death of Jesus Christ.  I must get rid of the lurking idea that I can ever be right with God because of my obedience – which of us could ever obey God to absolute perfection!

We only realize the power of the moral law when it comes with and “if”. God never coerces us.  In one mood we wish He would make us do the thing, and in another mood we wish He would leave us alone.  Whenever God’s will is in the ascendant, all compulsion is gone.  When we choose deliberately to obey Him, then He will tax the remotest star and the last grain of sand to assist us with all His almighty power.

Can one be convicted about the condemnation? haahaa . . . I think I’m feeling this message because I easily get off base . . . making my relationship with God based on my performance . . . obedience equalling love and acceptance . . . instead of the obedience being out of love for Jesus . . . already at peace with my standing in Him.  I cannot earn the forgiveness and mercy of God.  Good thing too. 🙂

This next one goes right along with the last one . . . I can’t help it . . . I’m typing it . . . you can’t stop me.

“Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect . . . . “ ~Philippians 3:12

It is a snare to imagine that God wants to make us perfect specimens of what He can do; God’s purpose is to make us one with Himself.  The emphasis of holiness movements is apt to be that God is producing specimens of holiness to put in His museum.  If you go off on this idea of personal holiness, the dead-set of your life will not be for God, but for what you call the manifestation of God in your life.  “it can never be God’s will that I should be sick.”  If it was God’s will to bruise His own Son, why should He not bruise you?  The thing that tells for God is not your relevant consistency to an idea of what a saint should be, but your real vital relation to Jesus Christ, and your abandonment to Him whether you are well or ill.

Christian perfection is not, and never can be, human perfection.  Christian perfection is the perfection of a relationship to God which shows itself amid the irrelevancies of human life.  When you obey the call of Jesus Christ, the first thing that strikes you is the irrelevancy of the things you have to do, and the next thing that strikes you is the fact that other people seem to be living perfectly consistent lives.  Such lives are apt to leave you with the idea that God is unnecessary, by human effort and devotion we can reach the standard God wants.  In a fallen world this can never be done.  I am called to live in perfect relation to God so that my life produces a longing after God in other lives, not admiration for myself.  Thoughts about myself hinder my usefulness to God.  God is not after perfection me to be a specimen in His showroom; He is getting me to the place where He can use me.  Let Him do what He likes.

Am I the only one that has a picture of what I am suppose to look like when I’m following God correctly?  If I don’t live up to that image . . . well, I question my God and my relationship with Him . . . not because of Him but because of my inability to be what I perceive he wants from me.  A lot of that image has to do with how people see me and perceive me.  My thoughts are usually forming around me and my appearance.

In the past few months I’ve been running on fumes, if running at all.  I have all but given up on creating that image . . . being that I’ve been saved since I was six or so, though the image in my mind has shifted and formed, it remains generally the same.

I have never once fulfilled that image and I’m tired of trying, truthfully.

What I do want and desire in this life is an honest relationship with Jesus Christ . . . not that I haven’t had that in snipits in the past . . . one that is not defined by what church I attend or what program I’m contributing to or whether or not I say or do all the right things.  I believe I’m at a place in my life where God is asking me to lay down the image and take up only my relationship with Him . . . a relationship, I unfortunately haven’t cultivated lately.

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Tired Out Tuesday

Number one I’d like to say that I love and cherish the kindness of my God.  I walk, or more likely drift, away from where I know is close to HIM and HIS presence and HE is so gentle to point the way back.  I’m not right most of the time and I know I’m never perfect but HE is so so very good to me! HIS ways are not my ways so I might not understand but I will do my best to trust HIM, eh.

This season, financially, with Justin gone a lot, and the like is difficult at times but something else that has occured since we’ve been here is that I feel so distant from church and involvement in church . . . something I love to do but everytime I think I have well-layed plans that are going to shoot me right back into the mix of church life, it falls apart.

Frustrating but eye opening into that God is into more than just what we DO, but also who we ARE.  Our souls and the deep state of our being . . . HE is the only one that knows me thoroughly.  I don’t even understand myself the way HE understands me.

And, get this, HE still loves me . . . HE still is being patient with me . . . which I can’t even begin to explain my gratefulness for; that amazing long-suffering that HE’s displayed for me and to me.

Something else that has hit me is that I don’t wanna do the works if the character of my God isn’t shining through in every aspect.  Whats the point if people aren’t changed . . . if they don’t become closer to God? So I can look good? . . . to whom?

I love this passage in ‘Utmost For His Highest’ . . . I think I’ve used it here before, I don’t care.  It speaks to me so deeply.  Please take the time to read it and digest it . . . and get the book by Oswald Chambers, if you haven’t.

Its called ‘Getting Into God’s Stride’ . . . what was I saying about walking close to God?

The test of a man’s religious life and character is not what he does in the exceptional moments of life (note from me: not that we won’t DO those exceptional things), but what he does in the ordinary times, when there is nothing tremendous or exciting on.  The worth of a man is revealed in his attitude to ordinary things when he is not before the footlights (cf. John 1:36).  It is a painful business to get through in to the stride of God, it means getting your second wind spiritually.  In learning to walk with God there is always the only characteristic that manifests itself is the life of God.  The individual man is lost sight of in his personal unions with God, and the stride and the power of God alone are manifested.

It is difficult to get into stride with God, because when we start walking with Him we find HE has outstripped us before we have taken three steps.  He has different ways of doing things, and we have to be trained and disciplened into His ways.  It was said of Jesus – “He shall not fail nor be discouraged,” because He never worked from His own individual standpoint but always from the standpoint of His Father, and we have to learn to do the same.  Spiritual truth is learned by atmosphere, not by intellectual reasoning.  God’s Spirit alters the atmosphere of our way of looking at the tings, and things begin to be possible which never were possible before.  Getting into the stride of God means nothing less than union with Himself.  It takes a long time to get there, but keep at it.  Don’t give in because the pain is bad just now, get onwith it, and before long you will find you have a new vision and a new purpose.

So I am completely and utterly guilty of giving in when the pain of discipline sets in.  Instead of pushing through and finding new purpose and vision . . . I relent and decide it will never be different than what I’m experiencing at this very moment.  I am wrong and I believe I’ve sinned.

Is it confession time?


But maybe you’ve done and feel the same way.

I’m not out doing the party scene . . . doing anything outwardly sinful that people gawk at and try to intervene on my behalf.

No, I’m talking about obedience to God and that deep thought life that no one sees . . . well, maybe they do see it . . . my family that is . . . when my temper flares because I’m not awash in the grace of my God.  Or when I get my panties in wad due to not counseling with God over my offenses instead of getting bitter and hateful. Its called forgiveness . . . but it takes God’s grace and strength . . . heck, HIS peace, love and kindness to forgive offenses of all sizes . . . when there’s not redeeming qualities about the offending circumstance or person.

In short, which this post is not, I NEED Jesus . . . in my life, in my heart and close by my side at all times.  I have seen what I’m like with HIM close and I’ve seen what I’m like without HIS covering and hand in mine . . . I know where I wanna be.  Deep calls to deep. I lack greatly without my God.  If I have to push through a dry season (for lack of a better statement) of learning and discipline . . . so be it.

Warning: Switch in Subjects

So, I was gonna write this here lovely post about wrapping presents last night.  The first batch (though small) that I will, I imagine, do this holiday season. Obviously I got side tracked.

After going to the store and buying wrapping paper, ribbon and bows . . . all color coordinating, of course . . . I come home around 10pm . . . wrap the presents (all 5 of them 🙂 ).  I’m done cleaning up by 11:15 or so and then Justin wants to watch a movie . . . and he was excited about this movie, let me tell you . . . so  I agreed.

Yeah . . . I fell asleep at 2am, folks.  Mother Tucker does NOT due well on little sleep. 5 hours . . . which to Justin is a full night . . . that is half a night to me. 🙂

So nap, I did, when the boys went down.  The boys are still sleeping . . . apparently I wasn’t the only tired one today.

Justin also has evaluations at the fire station today . . . he’s giving them and getting them. Fun *sarcasm*.  And he has shift tomorrow and on Saturday.  He has tests Thursday.

Yeah, the week did NOT slow down like I thought it would. But he said after Thursday there just isn’t any pressure and I’m sure we’ll go hang with him Saturday for dinner . . . maybe. 🙂

So Sunday might end up being Christmas tree day.  Seems like its getting so very close to Christmas.  I had to physically show Justin how close we actually were.  Barely over two weeks!! Aack! I need a tree.  NEED, I tell you! 😉

Also, there is SO much junk stuff you can buy for the holidays.  Some stuff is super cute . . . other stuff is just, well, crap.

We were on our walk/jog yesterday and we passed a house with a giant blow up Tigger (from Winnie the Pooh . . . which Samuel loves) with his Santa hat on, etc.  Anyhow, Samuel thought that giant 10′ Tigger should be coming home with us and cried and whined for quite some time about Tigger.  I think that might be something we can get him, what do you think?  Not a 10′ one . . . just a stuffed animal one.

Well . . . this post is looooooooong.

Have a great day! And a great week!

God Bless!

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“My eager desire and hope being that I may never feel ashamed, but that now as ever I may do honour to Christ in my own person by fearless courage.Philippians 1:20

My utmost for His highest. “My eager desire and hope being that I may never feel ashamed.” We shall all feel very much ashamed if we do not yield to Jesus on the point He has asked us to yield to Him. Paul says — “My determination is to be my utmost for His Highest.” To get there is a question of will, not of debate nor of reasoning, but a surrender of will, an absolute and irrevocable surrender on that point. An over-weaning consideration for ourselves is the thing that keeps us from that decision, though we pout it that we are considering others. When we consider what it will cost others if we obey the call of Jesus, we tell God He does not know what our obedience will mean. Keep to the point; He does know. Shut out every other consideration and keep yourself before God for this one thing only –My Utmost for His Highest. I am determined to be absolutely and entirely for Him and for Him alone.

My undeterredness for His Holiness. “Whether that means life or death, no matter!” (See 1:21) Paul is determined that nothing shall deter him from doing exactly what God wants. God’s order has to work up to a crisis in our lives because we will not heed the gentler way. He brings us to the place where He asks us to be our utmost for Him, and we begin to debate; then He produces a providential crisis where we have to decide — for or against, and from that point the “Great Divide” begins.

If the crisis has come to you on any line, surrender your will to Him absolutely and irrevocably.

“My Utmost For His Highest” by Oswald Chambers

This has got to take place in my life . . . I have come to a place in my spiritual existence that I have got to get out of the way . . . I’ve taken myself into consideration every second of every day; in every way. I’ve got selfishness down and I also worry to a high degree of how my actions, especially out of the ordinary for God, will effect others (ultimately ME) . . . the most important thing EVER should be my relationship with my God, my Saviour! How much does He have to let happen to me to get my attention? To get me to bend my will and lay myself down again for HIM?! Nothing satisfies like that of the presence of God . . . that’s what I desire most is the deep calling unto deep presence of God. Lord, give me the grace to decrease as you increase in my existence. I was created for one major purpose; to worship and adore you and to love and care for others out of the pureness of love You give me. Thank you for reminding me and convicting me in this area . . . thank you for your faithfulness to keep me close and to keep me right before you!! Thank you, Jesus!

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Come Unto Me . . .

Where the sin and the sorrow cease, and the song and the saint commence.  Do I want to get there? I can now.  The questions that matter in life are remarkably few, and they are all answered by the words —“Come unto Me.”  Not —Do this, or don’t do that; but —“Come unto Me.”  If I will come to Jesus my actual life will be brought into accordance with my real desires; I will actually cease from sin, and actually find the song of the Lord begin. 

Have you ever come to Jesus?  Watch the stubbornness of your heart, you will do anything rather than the one simple childlike thing — “Come unto me.” If you want the actual experience of ceasing from sin, you must come to Jesus.

Jesus Christ makes Himself the touchstone.  Watch how He used the word “come.”  At the most unexpected moments there is the whisper of the Lord  — “Come unto Me,” and you are drawn immediately.  Personal contact with Jesus alters everything.  Be stupid enough to come and commit yourself to what He says.  The attitude of coming is that the will resolutely lets go of everything and deliberately commits all to Him.

“. . . And I will give you rest,” i.e., I will stay you.  Not —I will put you to bed and hold your hand and sing you to sleep; but —I will get you out of bed, out of the languor and exhaustion, out of the state of being half dead while you are alive;  I will imbue you with the spirit of life, and you will be stayed by the perfection of vital activity.  We get pathetic and talk about “suffering the will of the Lord”! Where is the majestic vitality and might of the Son of God about that?

“My Utmost For His Highest” Oswald Chambers

Note from me 🙂

I am forever trying to make things right with myself before coming unto Jesus . . . forcing my mind, will and emotions into alignment with Him is only done in His presence. And the other lie I routinely buy into is He doesn’t want to be bothered with me . . . He does!  Way more than I’m even aware! So if there is to be any New Year’s Resolutions to be made its to become closer to the lover of my soul!! Everything else will fall into place. Forgive me God for trying to take life on in my own peewee strength! And one other thing, I love the last point the author makes about living in God being full of vitality, not suffering through but taking on each challenge in full knowledge nothing separates us from the love of the Father and in Him all things are possible!! We should have so much courage people take note. 🙂

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