I look back over the past year, since our big move, and stand in awe of God. I can see His hand put things in order and I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, there is no way these things could occur without His intervention and favor.
Now, that doesn’t mean life isn’t difficult. Money gets tight, as we try to pay off debts and get on top of things again (moving is expensive!). Schedules get busy and attitudes get grumpy now and again. But in all, I see and feel a grace of God for following the call, following what He laid in our hearts.
I don’t know the ultimate plan for what He has for our lives . . . maybe trusting and worshipping Him are all the plan He has. I’m good with that. 🙂
But He’s put in my heart a desire to paint, to earn a degree and pursue art. I see kids in the mix and teaching. Where and when He uses that, I don’t know. BUT, I am heading back to school, pursuing the art He has laid in my heart. I’m excited and overwhelmed at the task; I do still work full time. My job pays for it, which is another of God’s handy little alignments. I applied to a hundred places as we moved down and ended up at the job that has tuition reimbursement. Huh. I’m teaching, which I’m not academically qualified for, but they were willing to work with me on my education.
Justin. He landed a “dream” job shortly after, finally, getting transferred down. He loves it, was promised full time in January of this year, but wasn’t made full time. We prayed and talked about it and decided he needed to stay there. They were giving him full time hours, just not making it official with benefits and all the other perks. Just two short weeks ago, they made him full time. Granted, new career equals bottom pay for the job . . . but it only goes up from here. And it’s enough to live on and God continues to provide! … And, it’s full time! Praise God!
We fret and worry about our lives, our futures and even what we will make for lunch. It is good to plan, but what does worry get us? Besides a headache and grouchy attitude?
I read this yesterday and it keeps repeating in my head:
25-26 “If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don’t fuss about what’s on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.
27-29 “Has anyone by fussing in front of the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? All this time and money wasted on fashion—do you think it makes that much difference? Instead of looking at the fashions, walk out into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They never primp or shop, but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them.
30-33 “If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
34 “Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.
I’m reminding myself of this this morning, after having a huffy discussion with my better half and as bills loom, being the first of the month. It’s just money. It’s just life. There is more to this life than these things.